In Search of Hope
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18 month ago:
The boy was sitting in a chair in front of his father. they looked exactly the same as if there was a mirror in front of them with the ability to go beyond the limits of time. Even their facial expressions were similar, they were both sad, melancholic, ready to cry, defeated.
The fire and the shadows were dancing in the room. The reflection in the boy’s eyes made his face even darker. With his grim voice the boy said,”What do you want father?”
“My Wrath, look at yourself. My son you have become the very thing you wanted to destroy. You are a healer! Why do you wish to change it?”
“You have no idea old man. I have destroyed many. I never helped anyone, I only brought more pain and suffering for them.”
“I know you never succeeded, but you tried. It’s not your fault.”
“I will not let go of my responsibilities. I did let them die. They asked for my help and I couldn’t help them. It’s irrelevant how they ended it. You know this very well father. Please stop trying to undo it. I needed help long ago and you were to busy searching for nothing and now you have reached the nothingness. So let go of me.” The boy yelled his last words and stormed out of the room and left the old man to be devoured in the shadows.
A drop of tear fell on the desk and the old man whispered to himself, “he needs hope. I need hope!”
The boy ran outside to the forest. He remembered 2 month ago when she was still alive. He was happy, naive. He remembered the time when he first saw her. She was beautiful, but sad. He tried to help her. He loved her. But then no matter how hard he tried he failed. She was not getting better. On the last day, she looked very happy. He thought he finally made progress. On that day the girl gave him a letter before leaving him. He opened the letter.
My dear Wrath,
The day I met you, you told me everything would be better. I believed in you and I really tried . But this pain, this emptiness would not leave me alone. I can see that I make you sad. I can’t fight this anymore. I want to go. I thought if I get you and be with you I will be fine, but you are too good for me. I’m nothing. I can’t bear the pain that you can be with someone better and happier but you stuck with me, with my misery. My dear Wrath please forgive me for wanting you for myself. You are free now. Go and find love, like I did with you. Today I will end this. I’m sad that I can’t be with you but I know you will be happy.
I love you.
Wrath read the letter again and again after that day. He could not believe what he was reading. It was his fault. If only he was more sincere.
With these thoughts he grabbed his gun and started to shoot at any animal which came to his sight. Until he ran out of bullets. When he came out of the forest the old man had the first aid supplies in his hands and asked,”how many did you killed?”
“Not enough.” Wrath grabbed the first aid supplies from the old man and went back in the forest to treat the wounds he caused. It was his addiction now. Only after killing and healing animals could he endure this pain, this wrath.
12 month ago,
After 8 month, the boy stopped killing healthy animals. He would only kill those who were injured. He came out to the field. Grass everywhere. It was hard to shoot a rabbit here. The wind was strong and the grass were moving so it was hard to spot anything between the grass. The wind made him turn his face toward the hill. On that hill he saw something. It was a girl with her left hand stretched in front of her. He knew this gesture. He imagined it so many times. His skin turned pale, it was about to happen. He ran toward the hill...
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In Search of Fear
1 comment:
best episode yet. I feel it is much deeper than the rest. It is the most candid reflection.
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